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I’m sitting in my room alone now, thinking bout what lies ahead for me. I have been working for 2 months . I’m not sure whether I’m enjoying the job or not. What I have noticed is that, the job has definitely took half of life away. I can no longer do the things I always do, and I can’t spend time with my friends as often as before. The only motivation that keeps me hanging on to the thing that I’m doing right now is, I get paid for it. And the pay is good, for someone like me.
After getting my results a month ago, I felt like I have lost everything. Things got worse when I have to experienced few heartbreaking, painful situations. I am still recovering from it.
My life has been boring for the past few months. Seriously. I don’t know what has gotten into me, but I don’t feel happy at all. Nothing is fun for me anymore. It’s like something has sucked the fun out of me. I woke up every morning, and find nothing to look forward to. Just plain usual stuff that I do. It is just so, empty. Blank. I’m bored. Seriously bored with my life. Sometimes, I tend to easily get bored of people around me, and I know, I shouldn’t have that kind of feeling. I’m killing myself by doing that. But I can’t help it. I’m starting to feel isolated. It’s like I don’t belong anywhere. I don’t feel like I’m being appreciated by my friends. They don’t care about me. My presence will not make any different and my nonappearance means nothing to them. I am nobody. That is what I feel. I am nobody.
I wish I could go somewhere far, and leave everything behind. I don’t want to wish I could have a better life but I hope I will have a better life. My spirit is really low right now. I’m hurting inside. For no reason. My soul is ill.
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